Directionless And In A Funk

I finally have to admit defeat.

Not giving up, but just sayin’… I feel directionless.

So many ideas, but no way of filtering them through. My head is spinning with information and I’m getting superb help from so many people with this WAHM’s gig, but I’ve come to a halt, butting my head up against a brick wall. I feel like I need a physical person here, guiding my every step with this dang computing stuff. Like that’s going to happen!

Trouble for me is, I have multiple personalities! LOL!

I know little bits about lots of subjects, I’m interested in lots of different things, so maybe I should have lots of blogs. NOT! Just one is blowing my mind at the moment.

This is the story of my life. I get stopped. So many great ideas, all the help in the world, but I still don’t know what to do so the easy route is to do nothin’ or keep travelling. That was fine a few years ago, but hey, I’m a Mum and a partner now and going off travelling just isn’t an option.

This time it feels different.

But something has definitely shifted for me because I actually don’t want to keep travelling anymore. Been there, done that….and I refuse to do nothing because I really want to be a living example to my beautiful 4 y/o daughter. I want her to know that it’s okay to kick back and relax, but it’s also okay to make something of your life that you can be proud of. I often don’t feel that way about my life, but I’m sure as hell going to rectify it, not just for Charlotte, but for myself.

So, directionless I might be or feel at the moment, but I’m going to trust that I’m just in a funk for now. It certainly isn’t making me want to give up the new life as a WAHM. No way.

It’s time to take that old pattern and hurl it into oblivion, where it belongs.

photo credit: Daveybot