Another fizzer. Actually, I enjoyed being at the Kinder having kids including my own, hang off me for awhile and it was full on with the Roster duties, too. Charlotte wouldn’t go outside, no matter how much we adults encouraged her. She wanted my presence and for that I am grateful BUT there are some friendships to be made and there is fun to be had.
I have to say, She did look very happy & content playing on her own. Just being in the company of other children is fine for some children and whilst I was doing my chores, Charlotte did join in with the indoor activities. She was very accepting of the fact that I couldn’t be with her constantly playing and had to tend to other children and 
cleaning.
This evening I opened a conversation with her about next week and I need to find an appropriate incentive, so that I can leave the Kinder again as I did in week #3. Not a bribe. It’s a fine line, but even we adults need incentives to keep us focused. Charlotte tells me She feels sad and that it’s hard to explain. My answer to her is ‘Yes, you feel sad, but it’s okay to feel that way because there will also be times where you feel happy and excited’. I totally understand. I feel sad, too. Not just about leaving Charlotte at Kinder, but all manner of things. It’s part of the human condition, right? Yes, She may be picking up on my feelings, but there is more going on for her and I need and want to be sensitive to that.
We’ll get there, wherever ‘there’ is. For now, we’ll just keep the conversation open and continue going along to Kindergarten. It’s a nice place to hang out.
I’m blessed to have a 4 yr old who can express her feelings even though it can be a struggle and by the way, She does mix with other children without me around, but it is usually when She is familiar with the adults and child/children and definitely in a smaller setting. Big groups have never been Charlotte’s forte.
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